He has been phoning me with his problems constantly and although I keep telling him I can’t talk, he will phone back the next day and spend ages going on about his emotional lows.
However, this sound bit of wisdom is rarely heeded.I had many sponsee’s calling me, wanting my attention and I called them all and said I was done sponsoring anyone from now on. And I just took the position of GSR (General Service Rep) for my Home Group. Her sponsor said to her, “what’s your part in it” ? I began attending the mixed meetings I no longer attended. She was 5 years old when he, an AA member, who was dating her mom, took her innocence from her in the most horrific way. Holy cow…how they responded was like they were trying to cover up something and they wouldn’t give us the time of day.I gave my time, my home, my experience, my soul and friendship and I just wanted to move on. But when I attended the meetings with her at The Marina Center in Culver City, California and The VRC Friday night Meeting at 414 Lincoln, in Venice, CA., I was horrified what I saw. It appeared that there were men there that were not even alcoholics, trying to get sober hanging out. I called an old friend Tom, who was a board member in NA for many years and he told me stories about Bill W taking LSD, how Tom Powers called him a sex addict back then and this sent me searching on the web to then find read Orange Papers and attended more horrible meetings that I did not know existed in Los Angeles, CA. We fought for it and the more we did the more they iced us out.After a couple of months, you started to feel lonely.You missed having that certain someone in your life.Some of you are here for the first time and are wondering why would someone have such a blog. However, I did label myself this stupid word for many years and I did not drink a drop for 37 years. My blogging name is “massive” In the summer of 2008, someone very close to me was drinking out of control. He was drinking and pill popping and was showing signs of being mentally sick. He once wore a Brooks Brothers suit, worked for Pfizer, was college educated, a NY cop, he took us to the Jersey Shore to Surf (awesome) he taught me to swim at age 5. a man who had been an AA trustee and a previous delegate.