You need to do two things right now: figure out what you really want and talk to your boyfriend about how you’re feeling.
To continue in your relationship, you and he must work toward honesty in words and actions.
We dated for about nine months and then we broke up because we both just really needed some time apart to figure stuff out.
We decided to get back together about three weeks later.
He was the first guy I slept with, the first I brought home to my parents, the one I spent every holiday and birthday with.
Then he started fooling around with my best friend's roommate, and a month later they were a couple.